Wednesday, April 22, 2009


I cling to the strand of hope so tightly, drops of it run down the strand to fill my cup.

We got a call last nite from my mother in law. My husband's cousin, Josh, who has a rare cancer had been rushed to the hospital. They opened him up for the third time this year and this time they just closed him up and said hospice 2 months.

Tears are streaming down my face as I type this. Here is a young man in his thirtys with a wife and two young children and the doctors say no hope, 2 months to live. The ache in my heart is unbearable, I want to reach out and sending healing to him in that hospital in Missouri. I want to storm the heavens with my fists and shout and cry. This is a good person who is kind and loving, who has lead a good life and done harm to no one.

I feel helpless and all I can do is hold my husband's hand and say there is hope and I believe in miracles.

I cling to the strand of hope and wait.


The Acolyte Tao said...


This really seems inappropriate for me to say, but if he does pass away, the best thing to do is just accept it, he's not gone by any means. In fact you could astral project and see any of your past away loved ones, that's one of the beauty's of astral project. Anything is at your footsteps.

Looking to the Stars said...

Acolyte Tao, I can always count on you to bring a postive light to things. Thank you :)