Friday, March 30, 2012

Its Been Awhile

I've been off the blogging. Sorry guys, I just haven't had much to say.

Today, I got a call from my publisher. They wanted to know if I would be intersted in going to Calif. in June to pitch my book to 5 movie producers.

I was honored that they asked me but I turned it down. We just don't have the time or money for me to take a trip like that right now.

Plus, I have my own inner demons. I get scared, I don't mind having my name on a book but I don't want to put my face out there.

All my life I have been told that I would not amount to anything. I was told at a very young age not to even think about college, that I would never go and that even going to school would be a waste of time for me.

I acted, modeled and sang in groups but I never had the desire to make it big. I always had the fear that something bad would happen to me if I had ambition. Silly, I know. But that's how I feel and I can't seem to shake it, at least for now. I like being creative and  doing a book was a dream of mine and I'm glad I did it.

Who knows maybe in time I'll pitch my book to some producers healing a part of a scared little girl. :)